I don’t like to talk. When I talk, I use words that mean something other than what I want to say. I don’t understand it, why the words come to me when I write but not when I speak, even when I speak slowly, think about each word carefully, as so many teachers and doctors tell me to do. When I talk, the words always come out wrong, it’s like my mouth works independent of my mind, the two aren’t connected, or like there’s a mind in my mouth that takes over when I speak.
The only person I am comfortable speaking with is my mother, because she’s the only one who will make the effort to understand what I mean rather than respond to what I say.